Rest In Pieces, Samsung A22 5G SHITPHONE!!!

Kahit nagtitipid kayo, huwag kayong kukuha ng Samsung A22 5G. Paatras ang "development" ng Samsung sa model na yan. LCD na nga lang yung screen (mahinang klase kaysa AMOLED), madalas pa mag-hang. Napansin ko agad yan out-of-the-box, nung dineliver sa akin ng Globe Postpaid nung November lang. Panget ang screen. Yan ang hirap kapag walang actual test before you accept the device,eh. Excuse nila ang pandemic, ang hirap magpalit ng device kapag may issues upon delivery. Pikon na pikon ako sa GLOBE ngayon. Under warranty nga, pero ako mismo ang pinapupunta sa MOA para ipagawa? Hassle!! 9 years na akong postpaid subscriber nila, balewala lang. Bulok na serbisyo!!!

Excuse me for my rant. Nakakabuwiset lang talaga.

you won’t understand it anyway

I will not sacrifice my mental health for the sake of others’ desires anymore, not even for that kind of a “special” get-together/reunion. I also have a “biological” problem with buffets… I will only be in one with the right people, those whom I am most comfortable with. Making it public knowledge might have been a mistake, but I stand by this. Let me adjust at my own pace, I am still “cold turkey-ing”.

SORRY NOT SORRY.

Adele - Easy On Me (Official Video)

KAHIT ANO BREAKFAST

Na-entertain ako sa video na 'to ni Ninong Ry... laugh trip, lodi! HAHAHA!!!

UFC "286"

UFC was scheduled for Manila and one of my closest friends was chosen as ringside commentator. Israel Adesanya’s fight was the main event, I saw the poster but couldn’t see his opponent. I was so thrilled for the event that I found myself in the middle of the venue (SM MOA Arena), busy talking to people. It was a blur. It didn’t look like we still had a pandemic; perhaps a few years into the future. Maybe my numbers were wrong, I’m not sure if what I saw was “UFC 286”.

Before the event started, my friends and I posed for a pic with my buddy UFC commentator, all of us in suits & ties, having the UFC Octagon as background.

“Who’s your co-host?”, asked a friend.

“Covington retired.”, answered my close friend. (Awkward response)

“That’s it!”, said another close friend. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

A group of ladies, you included, also posed for a pic right beside our spot. I heard the photographer saying, “Producers and Event Organizers!! Cheese!” I saw a high school classmate of mine among the group and the wife of another close friend with you.

“Where’s your husband?”, my tall friend asked another close friend’s wife.

“Moving around, fixing things.”

My high school classmate happens to be one of the founders of URCC in real life, “The First Lady of URCC”, as she is/was called. On center was a famous local celebrity, LIZA SOBERANO, who later cheered for my friend— as she appears to be his girlfriend. “Our friend is so handsome!” exclaimed one of our friends. HAHAHA!!!

We eventually crossed paths after these photo ops.

Your group and ours dispersed and you went straight in front of me, head on, tightly pinched me in the arm and slapped my fist. You walked away saying, “Make it solid!”, grinning at me while looking back. I stared at you, bit my lip, rested my hands on my waist and whispered to myself: “What the heck is this woman trying to say?” [So weird!!] HAHAHA!!!

Turtleneck sweaters suit you. I think it was gray or green. I’m sorry, I become ‘color-blind’ in my dreams sometimes. HAHAHA!!! Your jacket, which was tied to your waist, looked like it had colors of the Philippine flag. You also wore a long skirt and white running shoes. So pretty.

I felt this “in-between emotion” of being in the middle of getting annoyed and getting excited, like I also want to pinch your cheeks. And I swear, you’ve made me feel this way many many times in the past, in the real world, when we were still ‘close’.

Close friend UFC commentator chuckled and said, “What are you looking at?!” And then it abruptly ended there, I didn’t even get a chance to see Bruce Buffer and Adesanya’s opponent. I woke up feeling the need to pee. HAHAHAHA!!!! I couldn’t sleep again, hence this early morning blog entry for today.

___ 

(*Sigh*) I miss you… so much.

I pray that whatever happens someday, wish I would wholeheartedly accept everything. Because we don’t own tomorrow. We are all anxious at some point, in our own way. And coincidentally as The Holy Scriptures say, “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself...”

There is a beam of light I see. I don’t know how much longer I must wait or if I should wait at all, but I’ll wait for you anyway. For as long as I can.

May God bless your household and everyone you hold dear. Stay safe always. ILY.

😶

 Let's just see what happens...

"THE CONVERSATION"

It wasn’t exactly a pub, but more like a rustic café. The place was beautiful: full of varnished wood & transparent incandescent bulbs, it was very bright. The scene started like we were in the middle of a long conversation. The sounds (voices & music) were faint at first, until it slowly increased to normal. We sat face-to-face, on opposite ends of a small square table, in the middle of it all. There were a moderate number of people, it wasn’t full and it was comfortable. I don’t know if we had eaten, but we each had a glass of lemon water.

“This is the real deal. Stay with me.”, you concluded.

“Yes, of course. I plan to.”, I replied.

I don’t know what we talked about, there were no documents in front of us, but the last lines seemed like a sales pitch for a business opportunity meeting of a multi-level marketing scheme. HAHAHA!!! 😅😂🤣

We continued to talk seriously, we laughed hilariously in between, you even showed pictures on your phone and explained things. I loved it! You appeared to be a recognizable customer there because people greeted you as they passed by, near our table. I noticed they called you “Lyn” or maybe “Lynne”, doesn’t matter how it’s spelled, it sounds like “Lin”. (Whatever happened to “Kim”? I was so confused.) Maybe it’s ‘Kim-Lin’ or ‘Lin-Kim’, you dressed like a K-drama star, after all. Red turtleneck long-sleeve sweater, skirt and high heel boots. As in W-O-W! Fierce!! 🥰

And then there was a long, awkward pause.

You stood up, grabbed your bag and said, “Okkaayyy…”

I held your hand and said, “Wait, can’t we dance?”— Very strange.

“Not just yet. There are things needed to be done. I’ve got to go. But stay with me, please?”, saying it with a smile, in a casual but heartwarming manner. –“Yes, I will.”

I heard a familiar song in the background and murmured to myself: “I know this 90s song; I like this.” I plainly couldn’t understand why I can’t recall the title. I later searched for it.

Then we went out. I remember holding the door for you.

___

I dream almost every other night: twice a week or more. But they’re mostly a tangled mess. With you, it’s different. There is always some logical pattern of a believable story or exchange of lines. And the details I see… beautiful! I can almost get architectural and interior design “advice” from it. I simply have to rest well, and it comes. It’s not 100% streamline perfect, I do cut off some silly things, instead of adding more dramatic details. I want to be as close to the original (“as-I-saw-and-heard-it”) as possible. It’s satisfying for me. That’s why I love it when I see you… you bring that sort of order, even just in my sleep. 😊☺

I don’t have to tell how I still feel about you; I think you're aware of it. I ought to be happy if you’re happy. Maybe I am. You should also know that I am always here for you.

Stay safe and take care of yourself. However busy you are right now, may God always bless you and keep you, along with all of your loved ones. 🙏💗

THIS WAS THAT SONG:

(I DO NOT OWN THE MUSIC)

“HOLD ON” by Side A

Yes, it's you...

You're the one in my life I've known

From the start that it's you I'd spend forever with

So please hold on with me...

 

You know

So well that we can't last a day

Without each other

You're all I have and I'm all that's there

To keep you goin'

 

Hold on, just keep on holdin' on

It may not be for long...

Just keep on holdin' on with me...

 

Hold on, just keep on holdin' on

It may not be for long...

Just keep on holdin' on with me...

 

Funny how

We both try to show that we

Don't really care

But deep inside the thing that matters

Is to have you...

By my side

 

Let the tears

Roll down, that's okay because

Tomorrow no one's goin' away

Just let this be and hold on with me

Hold on with me

 

Hold on, just keep on holdin' on

It may not be for long...

Just keep on holdin' on with me...

 

Hold on, just keep on holdin' on

It may not be for long...

Just keep on holdin' on with me...

Hold on, just keep on holdin' on

It may not be for long...

Just keep on holdin' on with me...

Hold on, just keep on holdin' on

It may not be for long...

Just keep on holdin' on with me...