Radiohead - Creep

"CREEP" by Radiohead

When you're here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In the beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

Oh-oh, oh-oh....

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run rrruuunnn....
Rrruuunnn.....

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here....

:(

Days of joy, days of sadness, slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

It's a dream, I'm in love with you...


--"Endless Rain", X-Japan

THE GREATEST SHOWMAN - "THIS IS ME"

My favorite song from the movie. Although the music genre (modern pop musical-- I think) does not coincide with the timeline of the movie's story (Pre-Industrial Revolution-- I think), this is still a good film. Beautiful!

(I DO NOT OWN THE MUSIC VIDEO)

Defensive... why explain? HAHAHA!!!

It's out t(here), I know.

But as individuals, we all have our own ways of coping. Believe it or not, the human psyche needs an outlet of this sort... real or ‘imaginary’. We all (well, perhaps a number of us) want to believe we constantly have an audience, especially in our triumphs. It's hard when you can't open up and share your thoughts even to just a few because they're "out-of-reach" at the moment. The need to express, or to talk to somebody, is a continuing desire. That's one of the reasons why social media was invented in the first place. But this (blog) is not that kind of platform.

As I've said before, this right here... is "semi-private". No other names, except maybe mine. I don't even know for sure if I have actual readers. Or if I do, they may not even know me at all. I've severed all links from my public profile to this (and that other site); cut to avoid unwanted attention. So if you're reading this and you're not me, welcome to the select few. HAHAHA!!! This is my way of self-expression and therapy. (Like thinking aloud or speaking one’s mind, comparatively.)

Personally speaking, I become restless when I bottle up my feelings, especially strong ones. To deal with these kinds of suppression, others do sports; write poems/stories; hunt game (rare in our country) or worse, drink booze (and make a mess of themselves). This is my version of that. If a conversation isn't happening because the person/situation does not allow it, how does one go about that?

If I'm elated, I can't help but show; if I'm sad, maybe I'll amuse myself. So there is still an element of confidentiality. Hahaha… But I don't spill the beans on others’ important secrets here. Only my own self-admission of flaws. It's more like inaudibly talking to myself while directing the subject to an (un-/well-)known recipient. So let them laugh if they think it's silly. They’ve got their own (socially-awkward) imperfections to deal with, anyway. I’ll laugh back at them. HAHAHA!!!

I know… that’s a lot of parentheses. HAHAHA!!!

This is me.

Queensryche - Silent Lucidity (Official Music Video)

"SILENT LUCIDITY" by Queensryche

Hush now, don't you cry,
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye.
You're lying safe in bed,
It was all a bad dream spinning in your head.

Your mind tricked you to feel the pain,
Of someone close to you leaving the game (of life).
So here it is, another chance, wide awake you face the day.
The dream is over... or has it just begun?

There's a place I like to hide,
A doorway that I run through in the night

Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realize, and you were scared.
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears
Retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind.

Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see this magic new dimension
I... will be watching over you
I... am gonna help to see you through
I... will protect you in the night
I... am smiling next to you
In silent lucidity


Visualise your dream,
Record it in the present tense,
Put it into a permanent form,
If you persist in your efforts,
You can achieve dream control...
...dream control...
...dream control...
...dream control...
...dream control... (help me)
...dream control...

(help me)

If you open your mind for me,
You won't rely on open eyes to see.
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down and a new world will begin.
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly.

A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize your dream's alive?
You can be the guide, but
I... will be watching over you
I... am gonna help to see you through
I... will protect you in the night (I...)

I'm smiling next to you...