My biggest
mistake was posting an item that had two different sides to it. I just saw it
from an FB friend’s wall and thought it was funny, so I reposted it without really thinking. The timing
was just too suspicious (for those who “know”), adding to my careless leaving of
a chat group. Oo na, mali na nga ako. Sabi nga sa Tagalog, “Nagdilim
na ang paningin ko, eh”.
HUWAG KASI ASSUMING! Hayz...
Yung isa, “cowboy”, yung isa, “feelingera”. Sorry, I don’t know the
direct slang English equivalents.
Anyway, why did
you think the latter part of the post was the one more applicable to you? Forgive
me. Are you insecure about your looks? DON’T BE! But don’t be too proud of it
either. Just have the right confidence. Besides, why would I consider you crap or deem you ugly if I find you
attractive? I think you’re beautiful, for almost ten years now. I STILL DO. It
doesn’t matter anymore if you would believe that or not. I didn’t believe your “intention”
to add me to your friends list in that social media platform, anyway. I'm sorry. I just thought I wanted to have that
kind of partner in life. And I think the first part was a more possible ‘you’ (to
be a partner maybe to someone else) as well. That would have been my side
explanation, aside from the fact that I was just humoring myself because of
what “sad” thing happened to me earlier.
I’m finally Waking
Up! THANK GOD for that! J
Wasted years waiting to strike at a perfect time? Whatever opportunities in relationships/marital affairs we might think we have, they’re simply nothing without the blessing of the Almighty.
I was itching
to get this out of my chest at that time, but it would only prolong the heated
exchange. Whether you were conscious about it or not, you were quite aggressive
to me. Why confront me on my wall when you can send a private message? I don’t
want to use the term “contentious and angry woman"; perhaps “a woman scorned”
only. You can be intelligent and strong too without being “pilosopo” and “antipatika”, you know. You’ll never admit that but I
could smell it from a mile away. The mere choice of words alone screams
sarcasm. And it seemed you were waiting for me to commit multiple mistakes,
while “correcting” me in an authoritarian stance. I admit I was about to warn you not
to provoke me, because I will be brutal with my words. Fortunately, I was able
to control myself when you said sorry.
I love that you
humbled yourself in the end. A very, very admirable trait indeed.
IF you haven’t found him yet, I pray that you
find the ideal patient husband who
will put up with you. Sana lang huwag nang humantong na maging mas "dominante" ka pa sa kanya, in terms of your relationship. Bawal sa atin yan, alam mo yan.
I still want you to be happy, and feel the fulfilment in life you are yearning for.
