SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO

Sometimes I just want to lie down on a roof deck somewhere and watch the dusk sky transition, wait for the stars to come along.

"DIYAN KA NA" by Prettier Than Pink

This is the saddest song... ever!!!

The Messenger - Linkin Park (A Thousand Suns)

Damn it, Chester! If you only listened to your own lyrics…. It would have been different.

We already lost two icons this year. What a waste!!

THE MESSENGER by Linkin Park

When you feel you're alone
Cut off from this cruel world
Your instincts telling you to run

Listen to your heart
Those angel voices
They'll sing to you
They'll be your guide

Back home

When life leaves us blind,
Love keeps us kind!
It keeps us kind…

When you suffered enough
And your spirit is breaking
You're growing desperate from the fight
Remember, you’re loved
And you always will be
This melody will bring you right

Back home

When life leaves us blind,
Love, keeps us kind!
When life leaves us blind,
Love keeps us kind!

Oh-oooohhhh.… Oh-oooohhhh!
Oh-ooooohhhhh….

Oh-oooohhhh.… Oh-oooohhhh!
Oh-ooooohhhhh....

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

She is bad for me as I am bad for her. – A realization and acceptance that’s not only profound, it’s Divine! When can this be said about me?

Is it “Better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all”?

What if a curiosity to push through ended up like this? –

“But your temper's just as bad as mine is,…”

“Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano…”

(IMPIYERNONG LOVELIFE ‘TO, OH! HAHAHA!!! XD)

‘LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE’ (feat. Rihanna) by Eminem

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie...

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe

I can't breathe but I'll still fight while I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight

High of 'a love, drunk from my hate

It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it,

The more I suffer, I suffocate

Right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me

She fuckin' hates me and I love it!

"Wait! Where you goin'?" "-I'm leaving you!"

"No you ain't! Come back..."

We're running right back, here we go again

It's so insane 'cause when it's goin' good, it's goin' great!

I'm Superman with the wind in his back, she's Lois Lane

But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed

I snap: "Who's that dude?" "-I don't even know his name!"

I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie...

I love the way you lie.

You ever loved somebody so much?

You barely breathe when you're with 'em

You meet, and neither one of you even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills, used to get 'em

Now you're getting fuckin' sick of lookin' at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em, never do nothin' to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em

You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down, pin 'em

So lost in the moments when you're in 'em

It's the rage that took over, it controls you both

So they say, "It's best to go your separate ways"

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today, that was yesterday

Yesterday is over, it's a different day

Sound like broken records playin' over

But you promised her next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game, but you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave out the window

Guess that's why they call it window "pane"

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie...

I love the way you lie.

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean

And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine.

But your temper's just as bad as mine is,

You're the same as me!

When it comes to love you're just as blinded

"Baby please come back, it wasn't you, Baby it was me!

Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems.

Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is I love you too much to walk away, though

Come inside... pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?

Told you this is my fault. Look me in the eyeball!

Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the dry wall!

Next time..." "-There will be no next time!"

I apologize, even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games, I just want her back

I know I'm a liar, if she ever tries to fuckin' leave again

I'm-a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire (just gonna...)

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie...

FOR ME, it is still “better to have loved and lost…”, even though you never ‘had’ her in the first place. Ultimately, however ‘incomplete’ (because love is only fully consummated when it is shared), love is still a beautiful thing! We just have to avoid it ending in catastrophe, moreover, not let it end at all!

The only fire worth burning is passion. But it, too, fades away. L

THE Y'S MIRROR

Why waste your time on someone who’s prepared to ignore you and/or offend you in some manner, if you pursue? Why torture yourself?

Why write stuff about them when they don’t care and will not be affected anyway? Why make an effort?

Why tell your close peers when you know they will only side with the other, in the end? Why bother?

These are the last (?) strands of ironic questions I need to blurt out to preserve my sanity. Sometimes it’s only a blank space worth expressing your thoughts to. The loneliness is now slowly killing me. It’s so stupid! I know— that displays a severe lack of Faith on my part. But we’re not all created with equal amounts of it. That’s why I’ve always felt contempt for self-serving, close-minded, (fake) moralists. Because oftentimes they are the actual hypocrites! That instead of extending their empathy and understanding to those who feel really helpless, they scorn them with their one-sided “holier-than-thou” remarks.

The concept of HOPE is an ever-returning Yellow-bright sun in our dark lives.

The Yearning for RELEASE is as stubborn as the desire for freedom.

And ultimately, it’s just you and you ALONE who will have to face your own battles.

I’ve committed many, many mistakes in my life. And sadly, I’ve always succumbed to what’s not right. I say this with regret, but if death be what prevents me from being further worse on this earth, before I fully become the passive-aggressive monstrosity I so badly despise, then please come here now.

I'M NOT AVERAGE AND I WILL NEVER BE NORMAL!

What is average? Is it different from normal?

We, as individuals, tend to grasp our human importance with our personal uniqueness. If one would find out he was just like everybody else, could that make him feel less significant?

Average and normal depends on general acceptance, especially socially and physiologically.

In Church, we are taught to be humble and NOT highly regard ourselves as very important people. I think we must only boost our self-esteem to have a personal sense of worth. It’s about doing one’s part, not raising one’s own pedestal.

Me? To sum my character up, I just might be the simplest person you will ever meet; and yet, I am far from normal. So, does that make me average? In sheer physical weight alone, few are in the same league as I am. HAHAHAHA!!!!

'STAND BY ME' (Ki:Theory version) from Fear The Walking Dead soundtrack S03E08

While watching the mid-season finale of Fear The Walking Dead, I heard this weird-sounding tune from the series soundtrack towards the end. At first, it scared the hell out of me. After a few moments, I thought it sounded familiar. I recognized it. It was a remake of an old song, a Ben E. King masterpiece. This industrial rock/electronica version by Ki:Theory is very appropriate for the show. This version is awesome! Wicked!! Horrifying with a tone of sinister despair, yet positive and beautiful all at the same time. The sound itself is a world apart from the original, but the lyrics have been virtually retained. Talk about faith in another! Or a conversation with God.

I love the radio scene on the Abigail yacht: Victor’s talk with Cosmonaut Vashenko is a tragic and hopeless kind. Madison has become a vindictive fighter who believes that “sides don’t matter” (at least for the time being); that survival of many, especially that of her loved ones, is most important at the moment. She has taken a leadership role, but snapped when her son got poisoned along with the others. We all lose ourselves at some point; and we have to live with the consequences of what we’ve done, even in the distant past. I think she actually is the main protagonist of the show; everyone else is just support. Travis truly did love very strong, fierce women.

Make no mistake about it, STRONG is different from RUDE. Because there are those people who think they’re the former, when they really are just the latter. Some too loud, too proud: but are actually weak people. These are cases where there are underlying insecurities beneath. It’s a false front. Don’t be intimidated. – Huh? Where did all that come from?! HAHAHAHA!!!!

Anyway, the last two episodes were good.

‘STAND BY ME’ (Ki:Theory version) originally performed by Ben E. King

When the night

Has come

And the land is dark
And the moon

Is the only

Light we see
No, I won't

Be afraid,

Oh… I won't be afraid
Just as long

As you stand,

Stand by me

If the sky

That we look upon

Should tumble and fall
Or the mountains

Should crumble to the sea
I won't cry,

I won't cry,

No… I won't shed a tear
Just as long

As you stand,

Stand by me

And darling, darling, darling (stand by me)
Darling, darling, darling (stand by me)

And darling, darling (stand by me)
Darling, darling, darling (stand by me)

If the sky

That we look upon

Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain

Should crumble to the sea (stand by me)

I won't cry,

I won't cry,

No… I won't shed a tear
Just as long

As you stand,

Stand by me.