THE Y'S MIRROR

Why waste your time on someone who’s prepared to ignore you and/or offend you in some manner, if you pursue? Why torture yourself?

Why write stuff about them when they don’t care and will not be affected anyway? Why make an effort?

Why tell your close peers when you know they will only side with the other, in the end? Why bother?

These are the last (?) strands of ironic questions I need to blurt out to preserve my sanity. Sometimes it’s only a blank space worth expressing your thoughts to. The loneliness is now slowly killing me. It’s so stupid! I know— that displays a severe lack of Faith on my part. But we’re not all created with equal amounts of it. That’s why I’ve always felt contempt for self-serving, close-minded, (fake) moralists. Because oftentimes they are the actual hypocrites! That instead of extending their empathy and understanding to those who feel really helpless, they scorn them with their one-sided “holier-than-thou” remarks.

The concept of HOPE is an ever-returning Yellow-bright sun in our dark lives.

The Yearning for RELEASE is as stubborn as the desire for freedom.

And ultimately, it’s just you and you ALONE who will have to face your own battles.

I’ve committed many, many mistakes in my life. And sadly, I’ve always succumbed to what’s not right. I say this with regret, but if death be what prevents me from being further worse on this earth, before I fully become the passive-aggressive monstrosity I so badly despise, then please come here now.