Smashing Pumpkins - Mayonaise

After a hard day's work... uh, make that a bad day's work, I wish I could have someone to talk to. That would be pretty amazing! I got low today. Not only at work. This tune is sad but beautiful; one of my most favorite songs ever. And yes, that's "Mayonaise" with a single "n".

It's that time again when I just want to scream and get away from it all. I have to take more of THAT anti-depressant, otherwise known as Prayer.



"MAYONAISE" by Smashing Pumpkins

Fool enough to almost be it,
Cool enough to not quite see it...
Doomed.
Pick your pocket full of sorrow,
Run away with me tomorrow...
June.

Try and ease the pain
Somehow, feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies,
When your love is so, so dreary...
Dream.
I'll run into the straight and narrow,
While the harlots of my perils...
Scream.

And I fail...
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
The way I can, I will


Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back.
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
Cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling

So bad...
When I can, I will
Words defy the plans
But When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise, no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me?
I just want to be... me.
When I can, I will
Try to understand
The way I can, 
I will...

"...strangely something so beautiful yet so far away."

Let me lay it down outright: I DON’T WANT TO PUT THE LYRICS HERE BECAUSE THE CONTENT IS NOT RELATABLE TO ME AT ALL. I only happened to stumble upon this video in my youtube account’s “Recommended for you” features. And now the LSS is sinking in. (What?! Hahahaha….)

I don’t know who these guys are. (Or is it just one guy?) As far as I’m concerned, they did a good job of putting a “Xennial”* like me to a trance with this particular track. Maybe I’m just tired. (Trying hard to be younger? HAHAHAHA!!!! Okay… I belong more to Generation-X.)

*

_{(I don’t even know if this 2018 definition is ‘official’)}

The “synth-beat” resonance and overall look of the video (wardrobe, car/s, setting) is like a combined Beverly Hills 90210/Melrose Place meets Baywatch first run kind of vibe. A clean empty beachfront is so magical. Hahahaha.… So early 90s feels! Did I say it right? Or does it matter? For me, the effect of their sound is a bit similar to what Toto does to my mind generally when I listen to them. Light and cool to the ears; strangely something so beautiful yet so far away. Music indeed is incredibly powerful. Sometimes it’s not the lines, stanzas and the accompaniment themselves that get you, it’s the way they make you feel.

Although it’s already a very long time ago, I miss high school. The carefree feeling of just living a simple young life, soaking it all up, and reacting immaturely to almost every other thing.

There’s a part of me that never outgrew it, believe it or not. So nostalgic and so happy— even though there were instances that I got bullied, succumbed to accidents, caught people’s attention for the wrong reasons and faced humiliation more times than I realized. I tried to inject humor at every chance I could. I wish I could have been more creative in some of the awkward situations, where I was totally unaware. But none of those make a difference anymore. Only the memories matter. Sentimental idiot here. HAHAHAHA!!!!

I’ve got to move forward in my life right now. It’s so overdue! Or am I missing something else altogether? Hhhmmm…

My brain is telling me, “WTF am I listening to?! Screw it! We like what we like.” HAHAHAHA!!!! >_<

LANY – Thick And Thin

(I do not own the video)

Save Me Hollywood - Happier This Way

"Goodbye to Romance" (Lisa Loeb version) - Bat Head Soup: A Tribute to Ozzy

I’ve known this song for more than twenty years and I keep wondering, why is it that I find the tune really beautiful just now? Maybe because of some occurrences in life that songs become more relatable as we grow older. I first heard it in a double-CD album entitled, “Ozzy Osbourne: Live & Loud”; I think it was 1993. Definitely one of this metal icon’s most awesome concerts! The original recording (1981) was that of his previous guitarist, Randy Rhoads. Excellent work on the guitar solo!

This version however, is from Lisa Loeb. Although it doesn’t really resemble an 80s Pinoy pop song (because the overall sound and guitar solo of this Ozzy tune are virtually retained), it reminds me of “High School Life” by Sharon Cuneta. HAHAHA!!!

Like jokes, at times some songs are half-meant. Half-meant. We can’t be really too sure about everything, especially in love. Some scenarios are still welcome in life. I’d like to think of it not as a goodbye to someone, but only a “someday-it’ll-all-make-sense” kind of tune and a “lullaby to misery”. Sad but clear-headed. Beautiful and timely indeed! At least as far as my life is concerned right now…

“GOODBYE TO ROMANCE” (Lisa Loeb cover) originally by Ozzy Osbourne

Yesterday has been and gone

Tomorrow will I find the sun,

Or will it rain?

Everybody's having fun

Except me, I'm the lonely one

I live in shame

I say, hey

Goodbye to romance, yeah

Goodbye to friends, I tell you

Goodbye to all the past

I guess that we'll meet

We'll meet in the end…

I've been the king

I've been the clown

No broken wings can hold me down

I'm free again

The jester with the broken crown

It won't be me this time around

To love in vain

I say, hey

Goodbye to romance, yeah

Goodbye to friends, I tell you

Goodbye to all the past

I guess that we'll meet

We'll meet in the end…

And I feel ‘the time is right’

Although I know that you just might say to me,

“Whatcha gonna do?!”

“Whatcha gonna do?!”

But I have to take this chance, goodbye

To friends and to romance

And to all of you

And to all of you

Come on, now

I say, hey

Goodbye to romance, yeah

Goodbye to friends, I tell you

Goodbye to all the past

I guess that we'll meet

We'll meet in the end…

And the weather's looking fine

And I think the sun will shine again

And I feel I've cleared my mind

All the past is left behind again

I say, hey

Goodbye to romance, yeah

Goodbye to friends, I tell you

Goodbye to all the past

I guess that we'll meet

We'll meet in the end…

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la…

Florence + The Machine - "Shake It Out" (cover by Eline Brun)

My most favourite cover of this song, so far.

“SHAKE IT OUT” cover by Eline Brun, originally by Florence + The Machine

Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way

And all of the ghouls come out to play

Every demon wants his pound of flesh

But I like to keep some things to myself

I like to keep my issues strong

It's always darkest before the… dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is questioned, such a mournful sound

Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground

‘Cause I like to keep my issues strong

It's always darkest before the dawn… ooh woaah

Shake it out, shake it out… shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

And I am done with my graceless heart

So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart

'Cause I like to keep my issues strong

It's always darkest before the dawn… ooh woaah

Shake it out, shake it out… shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So given half the chance, would I take any of it back?

It's a final mess but it's left me so undone

It's always darkest before the dawn…

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't

So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my rope

I'm ready to suffer, I'm ready to hope

It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat

'Cause looking for heaven, found a devil in me

Looking for heaven, found a devil in me

But what the hell… I'm gonna let it happen to me!

Shake it out, shake it out… shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

Shake it out, shake it out… shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaah

Shake it out, shake it out… shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

Ooh woaah

Oh woah

Ooh wooaaahh…

Miss Vietnam 2018 H'Hen Nie...

She didn't forget where she came from... <3 <3 <3

(I do not own the video)

It's true that some of the most generous people are those who were once poor themselves. Simply because they know what it's really like to have very little or nothing at all...

Always be humble. There is real beauty in humility...

How I met your mother - Season 7 - No Pressure (Yellow Umbrella)

I don't know... I wasn't an avid fan of the show, I barely watched a few episodes. I can't even say I can fully relate. But I cried in this one. One thing is for sure: Cobie Smulders is absolutely gorgeous!!! <3 <3 <3



"Shake It Out" is one of the best songs of Florence + The Machine.  

#mentosman  #justlonely