Martes, Enero 31, 2017

"ULAY, OH" by How I Became The Bomb

Sometimes the deepest of meanings are hidden in the simplest of gestures.

There are those among us who really feel and express passionately more than others. Writers, painters, performance artists and the like. There is intensity even if the feeling was from a long time ago; a lifetime, almost. It isn’t because they know not to carry on, but because their emotions are nearly as strong as time itself, maybe even stronger. Sometimes we don’t need a relationship to love someone very deeply.

Marina Abramovic is a notable artist in her field and has many famous friends. Frank Uwe Laysiepen is her former lover and collaborator.

I like her general appearance here. She looks like a Sister in Faith.

Although it was said that "they met and talked the morning of the opening" of this event, no one could have thought that it would turn out like this. Of all the spectators, she may have not expected Ulay to be one of her “sitters”, because it will be a totally different perspective for her.

“The storied couple was united again, if only in a performance, if only for a moment.”

As soon as Marina realizes that it’s Ulay sitting in front of her, you can see her face light up. You can almost read their eyes, as they look at each other this way once more after decades, as if:
“Hey… It’s you!”
“Wow, you still look beautiful!”
“It has been a long time…”
“Yes, it has been…”
“Do you still remember…?”
“I do…”

It’s usually Marina Abramovic who leaves an impact on her “participants” in these shows; but this time, she was just Marina and the man in front of her was just Ulay. Never mind what happened way before and what happened next, they lived in that “now”. It was beautiful. She was so taken aback she breaks down in tears. A small spoken conversation transpired between them, they held hands as other visitors applauded loudly.

And maybe through their eyes, a very heartwarming “hello”, “sorry” and “goodbye” happened all over again…

(I do not own the video)

“ULAY, OH” by How I Became The Bomb

There she was like a picture.
There she was, she was just the same.
There she was; he just had to know that she had forgot his name.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

Thinking back to the last time.
On the wall as they turned away.
Walking back; was it just a dream or did he hear her say?
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

Tried his best to forget her.
Tried his best to just keep his stride.
Kept his word, but he knows he heard
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

There she was like a picture.
There she was, she was just the same.
There she was; he just had to know she had not forgot his name.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

Ulay, Ulay, Oh.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

There he was like his picture.
There he was; he was just the same.
There he was, he could never know she could never give his name.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

Thinking back to the last time.
On the wall as he turned away.
Turning back, did he even know?
Did he ever hear her say,
Ulay, Ulay, Oh?

Tried her best to forget him.
Tried her best just to keep her stride.

Ulay, Ulay, Oh.
Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

There they were like the picture.
There they were, they were just the same.
There they were, but he walked away and her eyes could only say,

Ulay, Ulay, Oh.

LOVE FIERCELY.


<3 !

Huwebes, Enero 26, 2017

"failure notice"

I'm going to put this here just for laughs. I received this text message through my mobile phone, strangely as a result of sending an email to a co-worker using another device. 


The system, apparently, has feelings of its own. #humuhugot ! HAHAHA!!!

>_< :-P

"FALLING"

“Falling” makes us vulnerable. We have to choose the ones worth suffering for. It is unfortunate that it could come to a point where our daily lives are gravely affected. Or is it just our stupid selves?

Sometimes out of our frustration, we crazily wish that the feeling itself was just a turd we can flush down the toilet. >_<

Biyernes, Enero 20, 2017

A-HA - 'CRYING IN THE RAIN', Official Music Video

My father and I share a favorite song in this 60s tune.

(I DO NOT OWN THE VIDEO)

"CRYING IN THE RAIN" as performed by A-Ha (originally by the Everly Brothers)

I'll never let you see 
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain, 
I'll do my crying in the rain

If I wait for stormy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though my heartaches remain, 
I'll do my crying in the rain

Raindrops falling from heaven 
Could never take away my misery
Since we're not together, 
I'll pray for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool but 'til then, darling, you'll 
Never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain


Oohh-oohh, aahh-aahh....
Oooohhhh, aaaahhhh....
Oooohhhh, oooohhhh....

Since we're not together, 
I pray for stormy weather
To hide the tears I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool but 'til then, darling, you'll 
Never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain, 
I'll do my crying in the rain,

I'll do my crying in the rain... 
Mmmm....

Huwebes, Enero 19, 2017

3 Doors Down - Here Without You



"HERE WITHOUT YOU" by 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby
But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight
It's only you and me... yeah

The miles just keep rolling
As the people leave their way to say, "Hello"

I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
Oohh yeah, yeah

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby
But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl
It's only you and me

Everything I know (Yeah)
And anywhere I go (Whoa)
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
(Yeah-Yeah, Yeah-Yeah-Yeah)

And when the last one falls (Whoa)
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
Whoa-Oh-Whoa-Oh-Whoa, Whoa-Whoa, Whoa-Whoa

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl
It's only you and me... yeah... oh yeah
Oh-Whoa-Oh-Oh, Oh-Whoa-oh...

Martes, Enero 17, 2017

AN EXCELLENT REMINDER FOR ALL OF US...


A Great Big World, Christina Aguilera - Say Something



"SAY SOMETHING" by A Great Big World feat. Christina Aguilera

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one if you want me to
Anywhere, I would have followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I... am feeling so small
It was over my head, I know nothing at all
And I... will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love, just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would have followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I... will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love, and I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you, ooohhh...
Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something...

ang cute naman...


Biyernes, Enero 13, 2017

EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT

I very rarely quote The Holy Scriptures, but this verse has always been timely:


"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28 (King James Version)


:-D :-D :-D


Thanks be to God for Brethren in Faith who always cheer me up when I need it...


Megadeth - Addicted to Chaos (Original)



ADDICTED TO CHAOS by Megadeth

Only yesterday, they told me you were gone
All these normal people, will I find another one?
Monkey on my back, aching in my bones
I forgot you said, "One day you'll walk alone"
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man? Are you feeling strong?
My heart was blackened, it's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head?

Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?

In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted,
Addicted to chaos

Lights shined on my path, turned bad days into good
Turned breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em cause I could
My brain was labored, my head would spin
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
The plans we made are back up on the road
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Remember that you said, "One day you'll walk alone"

Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand? ooohhh

In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted to chaos


Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand? (stand)
In a dream I cannot see (In a dream I cannot see)
Tangled abstract fallacy (Tangled abstract fallacy)
Random turmoil builds in me (Random turmoil builds in me) oohh
Builds
Builds
Builds

In a dream I cannot see (In a dream I cannot see)
Tangled abstract fallacy (Tangled abstract fallacy)
Random turmoil builds in me (Random turmoil builds in me)
I'm addicted to
I'm addicted to the chaos

Addicted (addicted, addicted)
Addicted (addicted, addicted)
To chaos (To chaos)
Chaos (Chaos, chaos, chaos)
Addicted to chaos
Chaos! 
Let’s not aspire for things just for the sake of having them. We should work for what we firmly believe we really need. But more than that, anything that’s God-given is priceless.

Huwebes, Enero 12, 2017

Linkin Park - Iridescent



'IRIDESCENT" by Linkin Park

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
And with the cataclysm raining down
Insides crying, "Save me now"
You were there impossibly alone

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go...
Let it go....

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
No one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go...
Let it go....

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go...

Let it go.....
Let it go.....
Let it go.....
Let it go.....

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go...
LET IT GO....

Miyerkules, Enero 11, 2017

Ozzy Osbourne - Time After Time - acoustic cover

Nice version.



TIME AFTER TIME (Ozzy Osbourne acoustic cover)

Time after time
I guess that love is blind
I couldn't read your mind
Line after line

Line after line
It was written in your eyes
I guess it's no surprise
Time after time

I can hear them whispering
Shadows on the wall
Thinking how it might have been

Time after time
Line after line
You broke me

Day after day
I watched love fade away
I wanted love to stay
Day after day

The games we play
The foolish things we say
The pain won't go away
Day after day

Candlelight is shimmering
Shadows in the rain
Thinking how it might have been

Day after day
The games we play
You broke me


Candlelights are shimmering
Shadows on the wall
Thinking how it might have been

Time after time
Line after line
You broke me

Time after time
Line after line
You broke me...

THIS IS HOW I COPE

This is how I cope.

I write the unspoken things I want to say rather than shout them out loud, in a venue only “semi-public”. No names, just “satirical punchlines”. To at least express what wants to come out. Because however imaginary, we want to think that there’s an audience who sympathizes with us. Or the addressee listening to us. No one can be hurt when no one really cares about the site. Only the author.

Raw honesty. And release. Therapeutic.

I create playlists. Like a soundtrack of my own life. I sing my heart out when I’m alone. With songs that are relatable at the moment.
As one song title goes, “Boys Cry Tough”.

I like to believe that my mind is “trained” enough, but my locomotor skills now fail me from time to time. I’ve really got to return to my long walks now.

I find it hard to channel my frustrations through physical exertion. That’s why my energy goes somewhere else. I haven’t been sleeping well for two weeks now. I’m not sportive. I’ve stopped working out; I’ve stopped lifting weights. A long time ago. That’s why I’m a lot heavier now, much more than what I’ve ever lifted before.

I face my battles alone. Like I always have. For most things. For most of my life. With the mercy and help of The Almighty. We don’t want to burden our friends when we see them. We avoid talking about what bothers us. Because we know, they have their personal fights to tend to, that they have enough of their own. Like all of us have.

Sadly, I am given a less intimate family than others, quite dysfunctional in many ways. Surely for a reason. And although it can get severely “cold” more than it actually is sometimes, they are exactly what made me somewhat “tougher” than others, initially.

I am “cursed” in love. I always try a shot at it at the worst times, with the wrong women. But I am grateful. I should be. Because there are Higher Powers Who know better, if I am better off without it or at least delayed it for the further future.

Martes, Enero 10, 2017

The Worst That I've Felt So Far...


Papa Roach - She Loves Me Not

One of my all-time favorite songs since 2002… I never thought it would be SEMI-APPLICABLE to me! HAHAHA!!! 



“SHE LOVES ME NOT” by Papa Roach

When I see her eyes
Look into my eyes
Then I realize that she could see inside my head
So I close my eyes,
Thinkin' that I could hide
Disassociate so I don't have to lose my head
This situation
Leads to agitation
Will she cut me off?
Will this be an amputation?

I don't know
If I care
I'm the jerk, life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not!
Do you realize I will compromise?
She loves me not, loves me not!

Over the past five years
I have shed my tears
I have drank my beers and watched my fears fly away
And until this day,
She still swings my way
But it's sad to say sometimes she says she loves me not
But I hesitate,
To tell her I hate
This relationship, I want out today, this is over!

I don't know
If I care
I'm the jerk, life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not!
Do you realize I will compromise?
She loves me not, loves me not!

Life's not fair....
I'm the jerk....

Line for line, rhyme for rhyme
Sometimes we be fightin' all the goddamn time
It's making me sick, relationship is getting ill
Piss drunk stupid, mad
On the reel, could you feel
What I feel?
What's the deal girl?
We're tearing up each other's world
We should be in harmony
Boy and girl, that is the promise we made
Back in the day
We told each other things wouldn't be this way
I think we should work this out
It's all right baby we can scream and shout

I don't know
If I care
I'm the jerk, life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not!
Do you realize I will compromise?
She loves me not, loves me not!

Life's not fair! Life's not fair! Life's not fair!
I'm the jerk....
Life's not fair....

She loves me not, loves me not!

Lunes, Enero 9, 2017

2 WEEKS

Two weeks of irregular sleep.... I hate this!!

ENOUGH SHOULD BE ENOUGH!

"I NEVER FELT ANYTHING FOR YOU, AND I'M NOT SAYING THIS BECAUSE I HAVE PRIORITIES IN MIND.... IT'S NOT GOING TO CHANGE. HAVE FAITH THAT SOMEONE IS MEANT FOR YOU. IT'S JUST NOT ME."

"LET'S NOT BE FRIENDS ON SOCIAL MEDIA.... IT'S UNCOMFORTABLE."

-- I guess it will always come down to these statements. I wept many sleepless nights; but it made me stronger, my eyes clearer. Enough should be enough.

Linggo, Enero 8, 2017

ONE OF THE STRONGEST STATEMENTS

One of the STRONGEST statements one could ever make (in a possible transaction/in a possible fight/in almost anything) is the ABILITY TO WALK AWAY.  

THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT STILL WISHES...

There’s a part of me that still wishes not to have taken that ride... But avoiding it would have left me “hanging” and wondering again.

I guess it wouldn’t have worked out in the long run anyway; I think now that we’re not compatible. I realized that even before, our personalities clashed and did not complement each other.

Justifications. All is well.

Split Screen Sadness by John Mayer

One of my favorite John Mayer songs. Non-relatable but somehow this is my current LSS. Love the string arrangement on this one.

Biyernes, Enero 6, 2017

'TEN TIMES'

“It takes ten times longer to put yourself back together than it does to fall apart.” – Finnick Odair

Huwebes, Enero 5, 2017

JR Richards - Every Little Thing - "Stripped"(Original Singer Dishwalla)



Beautiful....


“EVERY LITTLE THING” by Dishwalla, as performed by lead vocalist J. R. Richards

(1, 2, 3, 4…)

Let me in
To see you in the morning light
To get me on and all along the tears they come
See all come
I want you to believe in life
But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
And will you find out who you are, you’re too late… to change?

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
Ooohhh… I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
Sometimes…
Sometimes… Mmmm

Lift me up
Just lift me up, don't make a sound
Let me hold you up before you hit the ground, yeah
See all come
You say you're all right
But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away, gone away
And will you find out who you are, too late to change?

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
Ooohhh… I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted, every little thing you wanted…
All the time

Don't give me up
Don't give me up tonight
Or, soon nothing will be right at all
Salvation
Is when you find out who you are, not too late…
It’s not too late to change.
Not too late to change…

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time

Ooohhh… I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
Every little thing you wanted
All the time,
This time
Every little thing you wanted
All the time, oooohhhh….
Every little thing you wanted
You wanted, ooohhh…
I wish I could be

Every little thing you wanted
All the time...
Oooohhhh, oooohhhh….

I wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted

But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away...

'FEELING STRANGELY FINE'

She was pretty, but I took a second look. She was with someone, definitely more than just a suitor. I found her attractive, at least from an angle. Hehehe...

They seemed to be happy. Alive.
I remembered someone, this early in my “relapse”. But yes, I want to heal quickly. Time is more precious now, I’ve wasted so much of it already.

I smiled. I was feeling strangely fine.


#BeHappyForOthers