It looked so vivid
that I actually thought it was real when I woke up. I felt you would probably
totally block me again; I AM partially blocked in reality, anyway. (Well, actually just
partially blocked in 1 account and virtually blocked in all remaining social network
accounts.) I know that
for a fact. BUT IT IS INDEED YOUR
RIGHT TO DO SO. I tried to check and look at what I COULD see, and realized it was just a dream. Or was it?
Yes… after a long time, I dreamt of you
again. Exactly on the day I swore I will start forgetting. I should have known that
being (one of) the first to greet you would have psychological repercussions!
I’m not sure I
understand what it means, or if it ever was meant for me in the first place. But I had a strong
feeling: that I’ve been defeated, probably a very long time ago. From the looks of
it, maybe things won’t change back to the way they were before. Maybe we’ll
keep avoiding each other until one of us settles down. I tried to start communicating with you but I could only go so far as a casual birthday greeting on a message
board of our common friends. I know you won’t talk to me privately anymore…
besides, why would you need that? I keep thinking the
suplada/mataray/antipatika you would answer back at me. Sorry, that’s what you
always made me feel ever since my confession. I just don’t want to “dislike”
you further for that. Naiinis na talaga ako sa 'yo minsan! And maybe that's a "good" thing.
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