The Sound Of Silence (Simon & Garfunkel Live at Madison Square Garden)

Haunting.

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MIKA - Happy Ending

"HAPPY ENDING" by Mika

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

I wake up in the morning
Stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen
I guess I wish you well
Mmm a little bit of heaven
But a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story (ooohh)
That I have ever told (ooohh)
No hope or love or glory
Happy ending's gone forever more

I.... feel as if I'm wasted
And I've.... wasted everyday

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love
Like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Two o'clock in the mornin'
Something's on my mind
Can't get no rest
Keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong
I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story (ooohh)
That I have ever told (ooohh)
No hope or love or glory
Happy ending's gone forever more

I.... feel as if I'm wasted
And I've.... wasted everyday

This is the way you left me (oh, I.... feel as if I'm wasted)
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love (and I've.... wasted everyday)
Like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love (Oooohhhh....)
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love (I.... feel as if I'm wasted)
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love (Hey, hey, hey, hey!)
Little bit of love
Little bit of love

This is the way you left me (little bit of love)
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love (little bit of love)
Like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

Smashing Pumpkins - Landslide (lyrics) _ Fleetwood Mac cover

By far, I think this is one of the best covers of this song. Ever. Superb plucking by James Iha! Another good version is from my favorite 90s ginger singer, Tori Amos. Very haunting but still very beautiful. Like a good person, you can't put a good song down. Nice one, Stevie Nicks! <3

Something That I Call A "Psychological Withdrawal"

I didn’t intend posting this at first, but I think it can help me cope with the acceptance. For me, this is still a sort of therapy. It’s generally not easy cutting off the feelings a person had for someone for so long. This will take time to fade away. After three weeks of initially trying to forget, here it was again.

A similar little occurrence happened four months ago. A bit different this time, but somehow connected to that one.

You posted a looong blog entry publicly. I might have been tagged by someone. You announced a major event in it, I wasn’t sure what it was because I skipped some paragraphs. You clarified some things that might have been misinterpreted by some people (which I thought was indirectly implicating me). You posted a picture; and alas, it was your fiancé…. you finally “introduced him to everyone”. My exact opposite. Based on the photo, he was tall and skinny. He appeared handsome, but looked way older than me (my mind’s eye must have been biased about his age). And the color was “sepia”, maybe for dramatic purposes.

I gradually realized what the fuss was all about. I suddenly wanted to smash my laptop computer right then and there. Just thinking about it “killed” me.

Jealous and shocked, I woke up having the desire to verify if any of it was real, I only forgot I’m now totally blocked on all social media platforms already. It’s an actual probability in the real world, after all, so I don’t have to see the post itself anymore, even if it was possible to check.

I have to prepare myself in all aspects for this eventuality. Because it may very well be inevitable, sooner or later.

If we ever fall, the universe simply needs more than just “love”.

Above & Beyond acoustic - 'SUN & MOON' (live from Porchester Hall)

(I DO NOT OWN THE VIDEO)

"SUN & MOON" (live from Porchester Hall) by Above & Beyond acoustic

It's raining, it's pouring, a black sky is falling,
It's cold tonight.
You gave me your answer, "goodbye", now I'm all on my own tonight.
But when the big wheel starts to spin, you can never know the odds
If you don't play, you'll never win.
We were in heaven you and I.
When I lay with you and close my eyes, our fingers touch the sky.

I'm sorry baby, you were the sun and moon to me.
I'll never get over you, you'll never get over me.
I'm sorry baby, you were the sun and moon to me.
I'll never get over you, you'll never get over me.

Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh...
Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh...

You held back and lost out, you gave in to each doubt
And walked away.
A final embrace, you won't turn, I won't chase
Nothing more to say

But when the big wheel starts to spin, you can never know the odds
If you don't play, you'll never win.
We were in heaven you and I.
When I lay with you and close my eyes, our fingers touch the sky.

I'm sorry baby, you were the sun and moon to me.
I'll never get over you, you'll never get over me.
I'm sorry baby, you were the sun and moon to me.
I'll never get over you, you'll never get over me.

Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh...
Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh... Wooaaahh...

HAPPY?

"HAPPY?" by Mudvayne

In this hole.... that is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole.... thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders....

I feel it in me, so overwhelmed
Oh, this pressured center rising
My life overturned, unfair the despair
All these Scars keep ripping open!

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?!

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?!

In this hole.... that is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole.... so limiting
The sun has set, all darkens....

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal pathway to contention!

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?!

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?!

HAPPY!!
HAPPY!!
Are you feeling happy?!

In this hole.... that is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release? What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?!

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?!

Peel me from the skin
(Peel me from the skin)
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?!

Tear meat from the bone
(Tear meat from the bone)
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now....?!

Does it make you happy?!
Are you feeling happy?!
Are you f*cking happy
Now that I'm lost, left with nothing?!

Does it make you happy?!
Are you feeling happy?!
Are you f*cking happy
Now that I'm lost, left with nothing??!!

THE FIGHT IS OVER

"HAPPIER"

I’m very fond of golden retrievers. They’re one of the cutest, friendliest and most playful dog breeds ever. We had a dog more than twenty years ago whom papa named “Shadow”, because she resembled the golden retriever protagonist (with the same name) in the movie “Homeward Bound”. She was a gift from our cousins, given to us when she was just a few weeks old. She also resembled the puppy, so adorable with a faint cute bark (at the end of the video). She was one of our first dogs. I wasn’t really that excited to have her at first, because I was sure she’ll always make a mess around the house— a constant “added” mess that we had to clean up ourselves every time. She did. But we later didn’t mind because we’ve grown to love her; she made it her routine to amuse us. She even gave us “stolen” kisses; jumping and licking our noses whenever we talked while leaning towards her.

We eventually got three more dogs running around our backyard. We never gave them leashes; the four of them were free to roam around. They never bit anyone and were definitely just pets and noise makers, not guard dogs. A curious bunch. Whenever we opened our gates, Shadow was always the brave one to go out into the neighborhood, sometimes even up to several blocks away, only to return an hour later (or as soon as she got tired) and sit in front of the same gates waiting for attention and re-entry.

When we moved to a smaller residence (an apartment), we gave her away, along with the other three. Now, more than twenty years later, we find ourselves missing our dogs. We just can’t presently adopt because of the space constraints where we currently live in. And our landlord doesn’t permit even lap dogs. I guess we just want the stress relievers and need the “therapy”.

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“HAPPIER” by Marshmello feat. Bastille

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking

I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

When the morning comes

When we see what we've become

In the cold light of day we're a flame in the wind

Not the fire that we've begun

Every argument, every word we can't take back

'Cause with the all that has happened

I think that we both know the way that the story ends

Then only for a minute

I want to change my mind 'cause

This just don't feel right to me

I wanna raise your spirits

I want to see you smile but

Know that means I'll have to leave

Know that means I'll have to leave

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking

I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

When the evening falls

And I'm left there with my thoughts

And the image of you being with someone else

Well, that's eating me up inside

But we run our course, we pretend that we're okay

Now if we jump together at least we can swim

Far away from the wreck we made

Then only for a minute

I want to change my mind 'cause

This just don't feel right to me

I wanna raise your spirits

I want to see you smile but

Know that means I'll have to leave

Know that means I'll have to leave

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking

I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

So I'll go, I'll go

I will go, go, go

So I'll go, I'll go

I will go, go, go

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking

I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

Even though I might not like this

I think that you'll be happier, I want you to be happier

Then only for a minute (only for a minute)

I want to change my mind 'cause

This just don't feel right to me

I wanna raise your spirits (wanna raise your spirits)

I want to see you smile but

Know that means I'll have to leave

Know that means I'll have to leave

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking

I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier

So I'll go, I'll go

I will go, go, go…

ANG MABISA AT GARANTISADONG PANG-ALIS NG "DEPRESSION"

Hindi man karapat-dapat ang blogsite ko para sa video na ito, nais ko lamang sana ibahagi. Masakit lang talaga ang kalooban ko sa mga nakalipas na araw, naghahalong mga damdamin sa isang bagay na may kutob akong mabibigo rin naman. Marami na akong pinalagpas na pagkakataon dahil sa bagay na iyon, wala rin palang mangyayari sa bandang huli. Siguro nga'y kasalanan ko talaga ang lahat. Pinagsisisihan ko na, ganoon lang talaga ang buhay.

(HINDI KO PAG-AARI ANG VIDEO)

Nakatulong na rin naman sa akin ng ilang beses ang mensahe nito kaya ko binabalik-balikan. Kung mayroon mang napadpad dito sa blogsite kong ito, sana kahit paano makatulong rin sa inyo (KUNG SAKALING APLIKABLE MAN).

I WON'T LIE... Yesterday Was A MAJOR TURN-OFF!!

Yesterday was a MAJOR TURN-OFF!! I’m sure this can be said both ways. I think more people hate me now.

My biggest mistake was posting an item that had two different sides to it. I just saw it from an FB friend’s wall and thought it was funny, so I reposted it without really thinking. The timing was just too suspicious (for those who “know”), adding to my careless leaving of a chat group. Oo na, mali na nga ako. Sabi nga sa Tagalog, “Nagdilim na ang paningin ko, eh”.

HUWAG KASI ASSUMING! Hayz...

Yung isa, “cowboy”, yung isa, “feelingera”. Sorry, I don’t know the direct slang English equivalents.

Anyway, why did you think the latter part of the post was the one more applicable to you? Forgive me. Are you insecure about your looks? DON’T BE! But don’t be too proud of it either. Just have the right confidence. Besides, why would I consider you crap or deem you ugly if I find you attractive? I think you’re beautiful, for almost ten years now. I STILL DO. It doesn’t matter anymore if you would believe that or not. I didn’t believe your “intention” to add me to your friends list in that social media platform, anyway. I'm sorry. I just thought I wanted to have that kind of partner in life. And I think the first part was a more possible ‘you’ (to be a partner maybe to someone else) as well. That would have been my side explanation, aside from the fact that I was just humoring myself because of what “sad” thing happened to me earlier.

I’m finally Waking Up! THANK GOD for that! J

Wasted years waiting to strike at a perfect time? Whatever opportunities in relationships/marital affairs we might think we have, they’re simply nothing without the blessing of the Almighty.

I was itching to get this out of my chest at that time, but it would only prolong the heated exchange. Whether you were conscious about it or not, you were quite aggressive to me. Why confront me on my wall when you can send a private message? I don’t want to use the term “contentious and angry woman"; perhaps “a woman scorned” only. You can be intelligent and strong too without being “pilosopo” and “antipatika”, you know. You’ll never admit that but I could smell it from a mile away. The mere choice of words alone screams sarcasm. And it seemed you were waiting for me to commit multiple mistakes, while “correcting” me in an authoritarian stance. I admit I was about to warn you not to provoke me, because I will be brutal with my words. Fortunately, I was able to control myself when you said sorry.

I love that you humbled yourself in the end. A very, very admirable trait indeed.

IF you haven’t found him yet, I pray that you find the ideal patient husband who will put up with you. Sana lang huwag nang humantong na maging mas "dominante" ka pa sa kanya, in terms of your relationship. Bawal sa atin yan, alam mo yan.

I still want you to be happy, and feel the fulfilment in life you are yearning for.

GOOD GOODBYE (One OK Rock)

Just a sweet-sounding farewell. Almost totally irrelevant except for that one word...

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